Archive for August, 2010

More good karma

Tuesday, August 31st, 2010

Got a call today from someone I auditioned for – who knows how long ago. I actually remembered it. They hadn’t found anyone for their short film yet, so they looked into their old files and found me. August is my month of old submissions paying off like a year later. Kind of fascinating. Just goes to show everything counts. Hopefully people don’t hold mediocre auditions against you for that long though.

Looks like we shoot next week, so that will be 2 shoots this month! Yay!

New short

Tuesday, August 31st, 2010

I’ll be working on another USC grad short this weekend. I play a normal human woman. There is a sentient computer in the short, but i did not go out for that role because she turns into a model, and I am not built like a model. I am more of a normal human woman. ;)

Mini headshot session

Friday, August 27th, 2010

I decided to try a new photographer for a mini set of headshots today. I know her from workshop, and some other folks from there had also worked with her.
Based on mixed feedback from workshops, I decided that my current shots, while lovely, aren’t capturing my essence. some say my shots look older than I look in person. I don’t see it, but more than one said it about more than one photo. So my goal today was to get a youthful, fun shot that will feel like my personality when I walk in the room.

We shot outdoors around her studio in NoHo and luckily it wasn’t as crazy hot today as it’s been. It started getting a bit hot toward the end, but hopefully it didn’t make my face red or anything. I did my own makeup this time so that it would look just like the makeup I do on a regular basis. My complexion is a wee bit dodgy today, but my hair was good. I timed my last haircut just right so it would be a good length but not so recently cut. I can retouch for blemishes if they are visible.
I should have proofs to check out early next week. Yay!

Leading Ladies back in Florida

Tuesday, August 24th, 2010

The movie is going to be in the Tampa International Gay and Lesbian Film Festival.

Tickets are not on sale yet, but I believe the time will be October 16th at 6pm. I’ll post more details when I get them.

Propaganda 19

Monday, August 23rd, 2010

Saturday I got a last minute email for a shoot on Sunday. A little production company wanted to make some funny PSAs for the California Prop 19, the one to legalize marijuana. I wasn’t busy and it sounded fun, so I went up to their studio in Burbank for a few hours. It was fun and I knocked out about 7 of them in my session. A few could be deemed offensive for sensitive types, but it was all in good fun.

It was kind of neat that I was contacted basically out of the blue by a stranger. It goes to show that people you submit to really do hang onto headshots for future use.

I’ll post a link when they are up.

New Agent!

Saturday, August 21st, 2010

Well, this week I got a call from Rick Brown over at Act One Talent. He was super excited about all my materials- photos, reel, resume, etc. I decided to switch over to his agency for both Commercial and Theatrical since they will do both. I think it will work really well for me since I like to have a more direct approach in what I get submitted on and they’ll listen to my requests. We have a similar philosophy in that regard. I’m just so relieved and excited to have someone to submit me electronically on TV and film breakdowns. And if I get more commercial auditions, even better! It’s a smaller place than Baron, so I’m trying to be a bigger fish in a smaller pond for now. I think it’s a place where each client could get more consideration because there are less of them to worry about. Which isn’t to say I was unhappy with Baron. They just weren’t interested in adding new theatrical clients, and that’s something that is important to me right now.

In other news we have dates for the feature locked down for January due to location needs. But it’s locked now, so I can schedule plenty of other projects in the interim- whereas before I wasn’t sure what my fall availability was.

The one where my drunk husband gets the car repossessed

Tuesday, August 17th, 2010

Remember that time my husband got drunk when the repo guys showed up?

Special thanks to Alex and Heather for letting me know it was on and where to find it online! (I’m 2:25 in)

Leading Ladies coming to the Midwest

Thursday, August 12th, 2010

The St. Louis International Film Festival will be showing Leading Ladies! They haven’t posted a schedule or anything, but we’ll probably have something in October. Woo!

Also, it’s playing tonight in Maine.

Misc Updates

Wednesday, August 11th, 2010

Looks like Part Time Fabulous reached it’s fundraising goal, so they can finish it and make it all nice and pretty. It’s not acting-related, per se, but it’s a movie I’m in and I’m pretty excited about it. I’m in the documentary contained inside of this narrative. Kind of a neat idea. It’s about a woman dealing with depression and deciding to make a doc about it. So I am interviewed about my history of major depression. I figured I’m a good subject since I am mostly all better now and I’m comfortable talking about it in great detail to help other people who are going through stuff like that. It may be a bit too candid for some people, but I don’t really feel like I need to hide who I was because I know who I am now. I think it’s an important topic for people to learn about and not think it’s some scary thing. Hopefully I’ll get to see it sometime soon.

Other news- Leading Ladies is playing again in Bangor, Maine tomorrow night. I had a pretty great cold-read audition for a feature today. Plus it was a rush call, so it felt extra satisfying to get there in time. Then this evening I was going over the contact info of agencies I submitted to recently and found that I spelled one name a bit wrong, and then just completely made up another name apparently. Like I seriously have no idea where the name came from that I addressed it to. Oops! Ha ha. Oh well.
I have another feature audition tomorrow. Lot of indie features being produced right now. Kind of feels like things are slowly improving in the biz.

The good, the bad and the waiting

Monday, August 9th, 2010

So here I am at the place I knew I would be.

The movie is slowly getting out there and getting great reviews, which is excellent. It’s something I can talk about and quote reviews to help promote myself. But I’m also at a place where I have no theatrical representation and am at a huge disadvantage to get auditions since everything is electronic and only the gatekeepers can access them and submit clients. There are some ways around this, (illegal breakdowns, snail-mailing, etc.) but when 1,200 people are submitted online for a role, odds are they ain’t gonna get to opening their mail and care. I do not blame them. It’s overwhelming. So, it’s easy to see why one would need an agent.
Sometimes people (usually non-actor friends) will ask if I have an agent and when I say no, they say ‘Why not?’ as if it’s some choice I’ve made. Well, I guess I could make my friends refer me to their agents, but that just feels kind of shitty. I don’t know why. It just does. Like it’s something everyone has to do on their own, like a rite of passage, and doing it some other way is cheating. But at the same time everyone (including agents) says the best way to get a meeting is via a referral. Some won’t even open unsolicited submissions, let alone bother calling that person. I got my commercial agent with a postcard though, so I still have hope.
When you’re at this place you keep asking yourself- ‘What am I doing wrong? Am I aiming too high? Not high enough? Should I give up and beg friends for help?’ I usually answer myself with- ‘No, just be patient.’

So like I said- I’m at the place I knew I would be. Fighting with the post-Outfest negativity and pessimism. Fighting on through, keeping on the way I’ve been going for the past few years, working my way up. Pushing, pushing, pushing the boulder up the hill.

The more stories I hear in interviews or whatever about actors I admire, many of them struggled for years and years. I’ve only been at this for about 3 or 4. I think to be successful it’s not about luck, but perseverance. It’s always going to be super high and then super… nothing. That’s the nature of being an actor. If you can’t accept it, then you will be one unhappy actor.
I find comfort in knowing that I try to further my career everyday. Might just be submitting myself to projects, or taking casting director workshops, or acting classes, or mailing postcards, etc. But something, anything that makes me feel like I’m working for it.

Which isn’t to say I haven’t also had my share of whining sessions with my acting class about how hopeless and frustrated I am feeling at times. But in the long haul it’s all worth it.

Today I had a good callback. It was for a commercial that I submitted myself for, one of the first submissions I’d done since taking the break for July. Maybe I won’t get it, but at least I left feeling like I did my job. I forget who said this – Your job isn’t acting, it’s auditioning. Acting is the reward for a job well done. – It’s true. If I just keep working, I will be rewarded.

Eventually.